Election day

Good morning
Its Saturday Aug 21 here, time for me to vote in our national election. I have decided to vote for the Labor party under Julia Gillard. I was tempted to vote for the green party, who are supporting gay rights, and look like getting a huge vote , maybe over 10% , but decided that Julia needs every vote she can get, because otherwise the ultra conservative opposition leader Tony Abbott might win, which will be a disaster for this country. Its been a shitty campaign, both sides have been pretty negative and uninspiring, but I always have and always will vote for a left leaning party, whether it be Labor or the Greens. I just hope the rest of the country feels the same. Tony Abbott is a homophobe and must be stopped!

in other news, i came out to my someone important the other day. my dads ex who he dated for 10 years. we stayed good friends after dad died, and are very close. ive thought about telling her for ages, and as i thought , she was very supportive. to my surprise she said she had absolutely no idea, i thought she may have suspected because she often asks how my "flatmate" is, but she really really did think we were just flatmates.

so next step i think will be my mum, just not sure when, i might not see her til christmas and dont want to do it then, so maybe early next year. one step at a time!

i need another holiday

the topic is very self explanatory. i went on a 6 week holiday only 7 months ago, but im just not satisfied. im obsessed actually. i want to travel so much it hurts. i think ive mentioned my travel passion before. ive been to the UK ,North america, South america , Malaysia, New Zealand, some pacific islands, and all round my own country too. but there are several dilemmas in the way of my future travel plans
1. the bf doesnt want to travel anymore. he wants to save for a house. very sensibile, grown up, and probably the right thing to do. but how fucking boring.
2. ive only just started a new job. its gunna take me at least 12-18months to build up enough leave entitlement to take a decent holiday.
3. where to go. i have no fucking idea. there are so many cool places in the world im dying to visit, but i dunno where to go next. my first choice is mainlandeurope. but if we do go travelling again, the bf would prefer to go back to the US and do the east coast (we did west coast last time)
4. money. im not poor, nor rich, but i have a decent job and some savings, but when i go on holidays, i like to live it up. no hostels for me. i like 4-5 star hotels thanks. and no dodgy airlines. another big holiday would probably wipe out my savings.

so it looks like im going nowhere fast. but knowing this doesnt stop my obsession. whenever i get bored at work, the first thing i do: google holiday ideas. sometimes for hours on end (yes i still get some work done too) . i think for now i might just need to book a weekend away somewhere. that will keep me happy for a little while.

Gillard says no to gay marriage and my views

After a whirlwind ffirst few days as the new leader of our country , someone finally asked our new PM Julia Gillard if she or her party will support gay marriage with her as PM. She said no, which is not a surprise as she has expressed this view before. Im not disapointed in this as she is still the most gay friendly PM we have had, and i still believe she could change her stance on this, but only if there is enough public and politicial support. She stated she believed the Australian community is just not ready for gay marriage yet. Five years ago she was probably right, but recent opinion polls suggest 60% of aussies now support it, as opposed to 38% only 5 years ago. So the support for it is increasing year by year, and i do think its only a matter of time before it happens, assuming of course the Liberal party does not get re-elected anytime soon.
So what do i think of gay marriage? Personally, its not a huge issue for myself, because i dont think i would get married even if it was legal. My partner and i are very happy with things as they are and dont need some ceremony or certificate to prove anything. But i do wish it to be legalized, because i believe we should have the same rights as straight people in all things, and the choice to get married if we want it.

political upheaval

Well it been a massive day here in Australia. Imagine in the US if Barack Obama was told by the Democrat party that they no longer want him to be president , and they want Joe Biden to replace him effective immediately. Well, thats what happened here today. Today, Kevin Rudd, of the Labor Party, our Prime Minister for the last 2.5 years, resigned as PM , and was replaced by the Deputy PM, Julia Gillard, who has now become our first female PM.
Im not too sure what to think about this. I dont like the way that its happened. But im a Labor party voter, and always will be.
in November 2007, after 11 years of awfulness under the Liberal Party led by conservative dickface John Howard, Kevin Rudd swept to power in an electoral landslide, similar to what Obama achieved in the US after 8 years of Bush.
Unfortunately Rudd's mega high popularity of the last 2 years has nosedived in the last 6 months. with the next election due to be held sometime later this year, the Labor party felt that had no choice but to replace him. I think they panicked, and i think he still would have won the next election. When it comes down to it, i dont think ppl will vote for the oppoisition, lead by the psychotic twit , Tony abbott.
I think its great that we have a woman as PM, but its pointless if she cant do the job. Hopefully she can. If the liberal party under Abbott somehow wins the next election, the gay rights here will take another backward step. Rudd has been pretty good for gay rights, he has pretty much given equal everything except marriage/adoption/IVF. Gillard shares the same views on gay rights as he does. I even believe she could be convinced to allow a vote on gay marriage, which the majority of australians now support, as do a lot of labor party members.
Tony Abbots response to homosexuals is that " he finds them a bit threatening" . hes an ignorant, extremely right wing douchebag. just like his predecessor, the dis-honourable John Howard, who not only did not progress gay rights during his reign, he actually regressed them , whilst the rest of the world was doing otherwise.
If Abbott wins, i think ill leave the country. seriously. so go Julia. Our first female PM.

gay jokes... to laugh or not

ok i have a pretty good sense of humour i think
i have no problem at all with gay jokes generally, as long as theyre funny or dont overly ridicule us , or they come from another gay person or a close friend.
i was in a social situation the other day where i got told a gay joke by someone who doesnt know about me, and i also dont know them very well. the joke was told after australia got walloped 4-0 by germany in the soccer world cup.
the joke was about a little boy in class whos teacher asked him what his daddy does. the little boy replied his daddy was gay and strips in gay bars and sleeps with men for money. after class the teacher asked him if that was true, to which the little boy replied "no, he plays soccer for australia, but i was too embarresed to tell the truth"

ok its kinda funny really, if ur american i guess replace "australian soccer team" with something like "new jersey nets" , and it might be kinda funny to you as well.what does anyone else think? not just about this joke but gay jokes generally?
i really didnt like it at the time, coming from a straight person whom i dont know very well.
its like a white person telling a racist joke to a black person i reckon.



besides that , things r ok, no big news :)

telling more ppl

hey guys! found a spare couple of hours to do a post. ive also been catching up on a few of my favorite blogs for the last hour. congrats to Taylor - taylor has a great blog http://cirrusflyer.blogspot.com/ that ive been following since he started it, and his progress over the last few months has been amazing, and he came out to his best friend the other night and it went well for him.
also welcome back ethan! im glad things r getting better for u and ur back posting.

so whats been happening with me? well still busy working off course. havnt had much of a life lately but i got a free day today, and im going to a party tonight with some friends.
im catching up with my brothers again soon and im trying to decide if i should tell another brother. i guess it will depend on how drunk i get? haha. im not going to put any pressure on myself, because im pretty happy with things as they r right now. i know that eventually i need to go beyond telling just 1 brother, but there is no rush .
anyway i havnt decided and im still 50/50 , its a couple of weeks before i see them so i still have time to think it through.

my mum had more surgery last week, and she is doing lot better. her condition (its a kidney problem)may still cause her problems in the future but for now she will be ok which is great!

so anyway its 5pm on a saturday here and i need to go make myself look good for tonight
take care everyone!
john

so damn busy

Hey guys

im so busy lately with the new job that ive barely had a chance to get online let alone write a decent post. hopefully it all settles down soon. im workin some crazy hours, but i need to put in the hard yards now, because if i work had in this job, the promotion oppurtunites that will be there for me in the next 1-2 years will be unlimited.



meanwhile, not much exciting has happened in my life. my mum is having an operation this week which will hopefully fix her health problems, at least in the short term. I havnt spoken with my brother since last time, but im not worried about that anymore.



so yeah, not much else to report on for now really, hopefully ill have something more interesting to write next time i get a chance to log on.

take care everyone

hot hot boss!!!

so i recently started a new job, and of course have a new boss.
when i met him, my eyes nearly fell out of my head.
he is about 26ish. lebansese descent. stunning hazel eyes. absoultely stunning face. clearly toned body. basically: the hottest boss one could wish for.
i keep trying not to stare at him, but finding it very difficult. i dont know anyone well yet, so havnt disclosed my sexuality to anyone.
so anyways, i decided to look up my new boss on facebook. not only does he have a profile, we even have a mutual friend. his profile was not private so i could see all his pics. i know its kinda stalkerish, but what else is facebook for?
so went thru all his pics. he has his shirt off in about half of them. oh my, what a friggin body.
i cant see myself gettin much work done in this job.
but i have no complaints. eye candy defintelty makes work more fun!

caught up with my bro!!!

ok so i decided to bite the bullet, i msgd my brother this morning asking him to dinner & a game of pool tonight (thursday australia time). he said yes and we met up and everything was just normal., we chatted as if nothing had happened. we had dinner, then went and got a pool table and had a few games of pool and a few beers. i wasnt sure if i should bring up the "outing" so i kept quiet about it, i was basically just relieved to see he was acting totally normal around me. so eventually he brought it up himself, which pleaseantly surprised me. he said "well u kinda shocked me the other week" i was like yeah, i shocked myself by the fact i actually came out to you! he basically reiterated that when he comes down to it, he really couldnt give a fuck either way, as long as i was happy. he asked about my bf. it was kinda funny, he couldnt seem to say the actual word "boyfriend" so instead he said... "i would like to meet your..... mate"
i said id love him too, so looks like they will be meeting soon. theyve actually met once before, but only briefly at my fathers funeral, where my bf was only introduced as my "flatmate".
he asked what i intended to do regarding telling the rest of the fam. i said i wasnt sure, which is completely true, he said he will support me no matter what but doesnt think i need to rush into anything, which i agree with of course.
so basically, it is really really all good with my bro, and i couldnt be happier about that!!!

well im off for a weekend away , im off to the great australian city of melbourne for 3 days (melbourne is seriously awesome, i know everyone overseas hears all about sydney, which is awesome too, but melbourne is just so much fun) thanks to my regular commenters for ur support, i cant say how much it means to log in and see ur supportive messages!!! xox see u all soon

O Brother, Where art thou?

so i havnt heard from my brother since he sent that sms the day after i came out to him. its not extremely unusual as we do go for long periods without talking, but i thought he woulda contacted me by now to catch up again and maybe follow up on our discussion. i might be being a bit paranoid, but im worried that hes been thinking about it and is now avoiding me. im thinking of texting him tomorrow and seeing if he wants to catch up later this week. i wanted him to contact me first to ask me to do something, but if he doesnt then i guess ill make the first move. if he says he cant make it, then ill know somethings up!!!
i think ive satisfied my "coming out" desire for now, i dont feel ready to tell anyone else yet. i know for most ppl once they tell 1 fam member, they usually tell the rest or at least some more, but thats just not me, as my story over the last few years shows, this is a slow process for me, but im getting there, and eventually will make it the whole way im sure.

in other news my mum is still very ill so im still a bit worried, hopefully she starts getting better soon, the longer shes ill the more worried i am!!

ive decided to keep blogging permanently for now, although with everything thats going on (ive also just started a new job!!) ill probably only have time for 1-2 posts per week. it just feels too good to get these thoughts and feelings out every now and then, its kinda soothing .