im so glad the working week is over. im going to have a nice relaxing weekend, might go to the movies and see Avatar. ive heard its good. its my last free weekend for a while, cause of xmas and new years and shit coming up, a couple of weddings and birthdays too.
ok so i didnt get with a guy for the first time until i was 20. i will tell that story soon. So before that it was all girls. i never really wanted to sleep or even kiss girls, but i guess in my twisted mind at the time i was trying to prove to myself and everyone esle that i wasnt gay. i avoided sex with girls until i was 18, always made some excuse not to, although i reckon i pashed about 50-100 girls up to this point. mostly at parties and nightclubs and stuff.
one night me and my friend (ill call her tina) got really drunk, just after high school finished, in late 1999. i was staying the night at her place as she lived near the nightlife but i didnt, this was common. we drunk a shitload of alcohol, went out, and came home so very very wasted ,we could barely walk i think!. but anyway somehow we ended up kissing and then started oral sex and then fucking. i was absolutely awful at it, i could not keep a hard on, i think partially cause i was drunk, and partially cause i wasnt with a guy. i barely managed to perform for her, i could tell she thought it was awful too, the next day and then for about a week was really awkward , but then we just forgot it happened and went back to being friends. she was the first friend from school who knew i was gay, because about 2 years later we were chatting on MSN and she brought up that night, and asked if i was gay because even though she hadnt thought it before, my sexual performance had clued her on. i admitted i was, she was totally cool. we are still good friends although she lives far away so we mostly just keep in touch on facebook. she came to my dads funeral last year which was really nice of her.
so in the next couple of years i experimented a bit more with girls. always when i was drunk! i couldnt bear it sober. i didnt get any better at it. i never slept with any girl i knew well, and never more than once. sheer embarressment was the cause of this. i havnt slept with a girl since i was close to 20 years old . i nearly did when i was 21, but stopped halfway thru cause she told me she had her period. YUCK! this was during the crossover period when i started with guys.
if anyone is reading this did you have similar awkward hetero experiences? id love t0o hear about them,most gay guys i know have never slept with girls, or say they are bisexual and enjoy it.
I don't have any stories of sex with women to share, just one "almost had sex" experience. It was on our senior class trip taken just before high school graduation. We took a cruise to the Bahamas on a boat with a few other high schools. There is no drinking age in international waters, so most of my classmates were drunk most of the time. One night a girl ended up nearly passed out on someone's bed in a cabin where we were partying, and someone suggested that I have sex with her. Before I knew what was happening everyone else left and locked me in the room with her. I wasn't drunk so nothing happened. Ironically, on the same trip I passed up a chance to have sex with a guy. One of the other high schools had an openly gay couple, which was shocking in 1982. The couple had the cabin next to mine, and one night there was a knock on my door. My roommates were asleep, so I answered it. It was a cute guy from another school. He was shocked when I opened the door, muttered "Oh, wrong room" and ran off. Later I heard him knock on the gay guys' door. I knew what was going on and wanted to go next door to join the fun but just couldn't. It might have been good that I didn't - this was before the concept of safe sex came along, so I could have ended up with HIV. I wasn't chased by girls in school as you seem to have been. Too shy I guess.
ReplyDeleteohhh you so shoulda gone next door lol, that would be a hot story! i had zero oppurtunities for gay sex growing up, i dont recall ever knowingingly meeting a gay guy until my very late teens!
ReplyDeleteOh boy. So my situation is quite a bit more complicated. I'm not bi - I'm definitely gay. I actually got married to a woman (long story). Sex with women has never been a problem for me. I don't find it awkward. I guess what is awkward is that I kind of enjoy it, even though I'm not really attracted to them. If that makes any sense. Maybe just the sexual situation is enough of a turn on. I don't know.
ReplyDeleteMy first sexual experience COULD'VE happened at my year 11 camp - WITH A GUY! But nothing happened cause I was afraid of getting caught.
ReplyDeleteHe somehow suspected that I was gay, even though I had never talked about my sexuality at all.
We were in our cabin and he was lying on his bed. Then he started asking me questions like, "what does your dick look like?" and "can I see it?". I kept telling him to go watch a porno.
As for girls, the furthest that I've ever gotten with a chick was when I was 22, and it was one kiss, no tongue. Laughable eh?
I eventually had sex for the first time when I was 24, and it was with a guy. I'm now 26, and some people know that I'm gay, whilst others still (I don't know how but they do) think that I'm into girls - even though I never talk about girls.